happy mother's day,mum

i am not expected that last year was the last time for my siblings and i to celebrate Mother's Day with my mum..on May 11,she passed away. my siblings and i planned to take her out for dinner at a luxurious restaurant that served chinese cuisine but that plan will not be accomplished.

my mum is diagnosed with pancreatic cancer(tumour at the pancreas) last June but when we discovered that,it's too late. doctors said they can't do anything. no treatment. no medicine. words cant describe how we felt that time. for my mum, it's just like the end of the day but she felt better when we comfort her. asking her to stay strong to fight againts the 'war'. since we can't do anything, we tried out the chinese medicine, from Malaysia and as far as Hong Kong(friends, that's why i went to Hong Kong on Christmas eve last year,not having fun but collect the chinese medicine)..at first, her condition is better cause the tumour didnt grow bigger but somehow she stopped having it cause she said she is getting thinner and thinner. from 60+ kg to just 30kg. it hurts me to see.

a few days before she left us, her condition is getting worse. she is in semiconcious at that time. feels very sleepy and very blur. she couldn't talk, barely open her eyes to look at us. she didn't say anything, not even a single word to us before she took her last breath. just cant describe how sad i was that time, seeing your own mother suffering and yet you can't do anything. but i know, she wants my siblings and i to love each other, take care of my father, and study hard. i will. i want to make her proud to have a son like me. and i am also very proud to have a mother like her.

i, sincerely want to say a big thank you to all my friends [ primary school friends, secondary school friends, college friends, tuition friends, interact club's friends, st.john ambulance's friends (you know who you are) ] for giving me support. and some who visited me. thank you once again. not forgetting my family members and relatives. i will study hard to get excellent results and stay strong. i promise.

someone told me it's better to let her go than seeing her suffering. i agree on that. i can't be so selfish. i hope my mum is happy now at that 'place'. without pain. without sorrow. just the happy moments. mummy, happy belated mother's day. i love you!